Lost... and Found

I lost myself today, in the swirling tides of silence,
Closed my eyes against the pain, and closed the shutters to hold it in.
I lost myself in the feeling, letting it crash over me, surrounding and overtaking me.
Consuming me,
Letting it move through me and touch me in all the ways I never knew it could.

I found myself today, on the floor as I thought that I lay dying.
My heart in a thousand pieces, splintered, shattered, bleeding.
Tears falling as I gathered the shards of my heart in my hands, and
held them to myself, comforting that heart with just myself.

I picked myself up today, dusted off and rose from where I knelt,
Surrendered in what I felt.
I steeled my spine, so used to bending, and held my head up high,
A new determination in my eyes.

I stood and watched through the window, as the dawn broke through the night,
scattered rays giving over to day, to drive the night away.
Taking with it the monsters, and the fears I felt before,
When I lay upon that floor, not feeling anymore.

I found myself today.