on taking a long needed break, a step back, and a breath

It's so easy to forget yourself when the world rushes in.
I found myself swept up in all of it,
losing myself in it, forgetting myself in it.
And now I've taken the step back,
to take the time I need to find myself again

I know what it is I want out of life.

I always have, I just have the tendency to become wrapped up

and losing sight of what it is I want, what it is I need. 

Of losing myself in others when they become important to me.

Don't get me wrong, this is not a selfish moment, but a necessary one. 

I've no intentions of abandoning the people I love most. There's nothing in the world that could force me to do that.

This is merely a recharging of my batteries, to keep me moving forward, instead of remaining stagnant.

This blog is my way of taking that long-needed step back, 

My way of trying to find myself again in the midst of all the chaos. 

I sit here now, at my keyboard, with the keys clacking out the audible sounds 

of my thoughts. Such a comforting sound, a familiar sound, the all too familiar clacking of those keys as my fingers fly over them. After so many years, it feels like home, to sit here, watching the words appear on the screen. 

I can feel myself shedding the layers of this world that have so clouded my mind, all of the stress and the worry and the self consciousness and doubt. 

There goes the fear again, my cursor hovering over the post button, then the sweet release of relief that rushes in when I finally click it, sending my thoughts off to whomever wishes to read it, in the hope that perhaps they know how I feel, and that maybe my push to find myself will remind them to take their own step back.