the runner - an original poem by avsongbird

I miss you-- a love letter

I miss you- a love letter
(This is from another love story I wrote a few years back. It's still one of my favorites, and I often find myself going back to read the story all over again. I hope you enjoy it.)

God, how I miss you.
Your innocence, your faith, your eyes.
Your fearlessness.
I miss the way your eyes light up with your smile.
I miss the feel of your lips on mine.
Your slender fingers playing whisperingly over my skin
In seeming innocence, as though you didn't know that
You set my soul on fire with just one touch, one look.
One kiss.
I catch myself saying your name at odd moments,
Just for the tingle of excitement that always passes through me
Whenever I say it aloud.
I lie in my bed in the dark and whisper your name into the darkness,
And I imagine you're there with me, your arm around me
As it once was.
I miss the way you always reached out for me while you slept,
When you were too lost to your dreams to even realize you were doing it.
I miss every second of every day we spent together.
I miss your thoughtfulness and the sound of your voice.
And more than all of this, I miss the smile you always saved
Just for me.

In those Pages

In Those Pages

By Jen K.-- 2015

I'm there, in those pages,

If you look hard enough.

Can you find me there?

Do you want to?

When you pull back the cover on my notebook,

When you click on that link,

You're foregoing the guardrails, and the safety nets.

You're leaving your world behind you, shedding it like a discarded skin.

You're crossing over into a world entirely of my making.

And the rules of your old world-- your old life-- don't necessarily apply to mine.

So consider yourself warned, and welcome aboard.

Don't keep your hands and arms inside the car at all times,

But I sincerely hope you enjoy the ride. 

Let me hunger

Let me hunger,
Let me rage,
Let my passion stain
the page.


Let the fury crash
Like lightning,
Let it surge across the sky.
Let me paint everything
Of nothing.
Let me flourish,
Let me fly.

Story of A Life

Story of a life

Too young memories of screaming,

fighting,

divorce,

Hamburger helper dinners,

just the three of us, enjoying the peace, the quiet.

Caring mother, loving, devoted.

Two years, just the three of us,

military man, second chance.

haunted by the past,

desperate for love, for peace.

Near constant moving,

Schools blurring together,

Faceless classmates in clichés that pass by.

Discovered passions, purpose, direction,

Whirlwind of classes,

Farewell, big brother.

Buried in schoolwork, 4.0, first job,

diploma.

Trusting girl, played for a fool,

Distrustful but not without reason.

Nanny, Caregiver, Personal Aide.

Grocery clerk, injured,

Starting over for the second time.

Passion and pain unavoidably linked together,

Refusal to give up the passion despite the pain.

Boyfriend to fiance, fiance to husband.

Apartment to house.

Nice house, quiet nights, echoing nights in a silent house.

Years pass.

Loneliness forgotten, lost in the worlds within.

Reawakening hunger, passion, drive,

Reaching for others,

Understanding, community,

still searching for understanding,

for peace.

Angels, Demons

Angels, Demons

By Jen K.

If you don't appeal to my angels,

You'll awaken my demons,

They await me in the night, in the dark.

And if I'm not vigilant as the night grows colder

They'll drive their daggers deep into my heart.

I feed my demons when I'm alone, when I'm afraid.

I hear them best when I'm lonely, when I'm lost.

Then I'm left to clean up whatever messes they make,

Left behind to bear the burden, and the cost. 

Have you Ever

Have you ever had a memory..
that wasn't real?
Have you ever had a touch,
that made you long to feel?
Have you ever known a love,
that brought a cry from your deepest soul,
have you ever had another half,
that made you whole?