Friday, July 24, 2015

I'm not a fake person

               I'm not a fake person. I never have been. And I've always despised fake people, or the thought of being fake. Faking smiles, faking laughter, pretending to be or to feel or to think any other way than the way you really are.
               It isn't me, and it never has been.
               I can think of a million things I'd rather be doing than having to pretend to be anything other than what or who I am for the sake of anything. Most especially for the sake of appearance or acceptance.
               We shouldn't have to be fake. We shouldn't have to pretend. But we do. Because we feel we have to. We live in a world full of beauty magazines and makeup and plastic surgery, of diet pills and bulk up powders and drugs, where we're judged on an almost constant basis by how we look, how we dress, who we're seen with, who we're sleeping with, our politics, our religion. We are judged on anything and everything about our lives from the moment we're born until we breathe our last.
               So we fake. We smile. We laugh. We pretend. And we judge ourselves by unattainable goals and ideals of perfection, and we put fake images on pedestals to give ourselves images to strive for.
               And even the ones we dream of becoming are not all that they seem.
               And as the years pass, younger and younger people in our society are becoming caught up in our obsession with perfection, and the unattainable, and they're killing themselves trying to become something to be fawned over, something to be admired, because they mistakenly believe that they're not already there, and that they always were.
               We're born, we smile, we laugh, we pretend. We open our eyes to the world only to close them against what offends our senses or what we believe to be unattractive by our cosmetic and scale-judging standards because it's easier than facing the truth about what we're becoming, and what we allow to continue.

               So we fake.

Ah the joys of laughing at yourself- read audiobook style on my youtube page

Thursday, July 2, 2015

"Run Jesse" - part 1 by avsongbird - reading on my youtube channel, audiobook style

Lead in for "Run Jesse" by avsongbird-- reading on my youtube channel, audiobook style

Writing should never be "Safe"

               Writing should never be "safe". It's not meant to be. It doesn't have to be perfect, cookie-cutter. It's meant to break the rules, to elicit emotions.
               To change someone else's viewpoint, to open their eyes, to reach out through that page as a writer and to grab the attention and the heart of your reader, it can never be anything less, or you risk something vital being lost in the translation that happens between the person who first dreamed up the writing, then translated it from what they saw in their head onto paper (or computer), and the interpretation of the reader when they read it.
               And that's of course, not taking into account those of us who have to go through editing, publishing, republishing before the work gets out to whomever you choose to share it with.
               It all begins with a thought, an idea-- a flash in the dark that catches the writer's attention and holds it for a second.
               That second is all it takes to spark an idea in our minds, and suddenly, worlds are born, heroes are born, grow up, go to battle, marry, have children, and die old men and women.
               And it all happens in the flash of a second.
               Each and every story you write shines a spotlight on the characters that inhabit your mental stage-- whether they're human, cyborg, robot, hybrids, aliens, animals, rocks with wings that fart rainbow-colored sparkles.
               The point is, for a moment, you're shining a spotlight on something, on someone. When you're writing a story, poem, song, making a painting, a sculpture, taking a photograph--
               You found something that caught your attention long enough for you to want to draw someone else's attention to it, so that you can turn around and share in that moment, and that subject matter with someone else in turn, so you pour your heart and soul into your craft, putting in time and effort and work-- sweating, bleeding, creating-- and all the while feeling this underlying need to share your work with others.
               For a moment, when it's seen, read, viewed, listened to, you're sharing that moment in time with another human being, and whether they're standing in the room with you and you can see the expression on their face, or whether they're half a world away, seeing your work on the television, hearing it on the radio, seeing it on the computer or in a magazine, in a book-- they are sharing that moment with you.
               And it all began with that spark of inspiration that ignited a spark of creation in your brain.
               It began in excitement and epiphany and panic as you ran headlong to find paper, to find drawing tools, a camera, your laptop-- whatever tools you use to create whatever form of expression you use to express how you feel.
               It began with feeling. And no matter how many filters and layers and edits it goes through, it should never become anything less.


I didn't blow off posting today... let me tell you about my day...

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